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Friday, August 27, 2010

My Somersault Kid...

Praise God for therapy! I guess PT has been paying off!

First Week in a Nutshell...

Joshua's first week of school was great. At least I think it was, lol. He absolutely LOVED it. He is up and eager to start the day at 6:30am without protest. Our community has a special gate to access the school so we park at the clubhouse and walk the rest of the way to his classroom. It is really nice. Josh holds my hand and is always excited to be going to "toowl" lol. That is, with the exception of today.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Sunglasses = Copy Cat = Time Warp!

This is too funny and cute. Joshua got ahold of my sunglasses a while back and he poked one of the lenses out. The single lense has been sitting in my nightstand drawer forever. Well, the other day he found the glasses again and popped the other lense out. Tonight, he found the glasses again, this time lenseless, and was wearing the empty rims around my room. He was hilarious. I grabbed the camera as quick as I could and this is what I got.

Look familiar??? You guessed it! Joshua is trying to copy off of Aunt Stephanie. And yes, it's a time warp back to the 1980's!

Monday, August 23, 2010

First Day Pics...

Pretty poor quality pics, but adorable. I can't wait to get a new camera!
You think I take a lot of pics now, lol. Just wait :)

Lightning McQueen gear? Check!

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Scary, Sad, Scary, Sad...

BUT EXCITED... Exhausted and my feet are killing me, but wanted to scribble this down real quick. Tomorrow Joshua starts the ESE Pre-K program at the elementary school!! This is for the children with special needs, like him, that qualify for this early program. And he will get an IEP (individual education plan). They can attend at 3 years of age and 4 years of age until they move into Kindergarden. I have been on my feet all day getting all of his stuff labeled, documented and packed. Thank goodness he's been sleeping since 7pm. The program is 5 days a week, 6 hours each day. They are treated just like the rest of the elementary students. This is an exciting program because he is going to learn so much and advance in so many ways... especially speech! At least we hope, lol. But it is such a sad event as well. My little baby, my fun buddy, is going to leave his mom! So I'm off to bed so that we can wake up extra early in the morning. School here we come!

My exact feeling: Sadness, as if my child is being taken away from me! Irrational I know, but what can I say? I've never given anyone, not even my own family, this much slack on the very short leash Joshua has been on. I know the benefits will outweigh my fears. I just have to keep praying and trust that God continues to keep Joshua safe and protected through these new adventures!

Saturday, August 14, 2010

A throw back I couldn't resist...

I was looking through my pics today, trying to find something specific, and I stumbled upon these. My heart melted, lol. What a cute little stinker! I forgot he was ever this tiny!

That smile is enough to suck you in for life! He was 7 months in these pictures (non-adjusted). I sometimes wish things weren't so hectic and stressful back then so I could actually remember these days. Looking back on it now, I'm not sure why, I can't find any vivid memories of life after the NICU. Is it strange that I don't even remember holding my baby?

Friday, August 13, 2010

Next Surgery...

I can't bring myself to schedule Joshua's next surgery. I need some strength and wisdom on this one. It was supposed to be done about a year ago, but his Infectious Disease specialist (who follows his lymph nodes to rule out cancer suspicions) suggested holding off on surgeries until he was cleared through Cardiology and Pulmonology first. This was because his lips and entire mouth area kept turning blue when he cried. She caught a glimpse of it during one of his appointments and it was alarming enough for her to send us for clearance. Hence his recent heart contrast study. Anyway, he has been cleared and went through with his ENT/Cardio procedures. Now we have another urology surgery. This one can be mighty grueling. I am definitely not looking forward to the recovery. I can't even bring myself to call the office to set it up. I HATE SURGERY! Maybe that's why, lol. Whatever it is, I can't hold off much longer. I just hate to put him under again so soon. They are magnificent, but surgeons often treat these procedures/surgeries as if changing their underwear... so casual, so routine and so normal. But to me, a mother trying to keep her piece of glass from shattering, it isn't all that easy.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Featured Video...

This is a video I made shortly after Joshua came home from the hospital. Nick's mom always said how resilient Joshua was (and is) and that kind of gave me the idea for this video. I wanted to put it up here since this blog is my new scrapbooking method, lol.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Al Bundy Style...

Most would probably think this is an embarrassing picture to share. I just think it's plain funny. I guess that's the immature, child in me. LOL.

I may not have posted it if I had not had the constant thought of Al Bundy from Married with Children stuck in my head since seeing Josh sleep like this. So here it is. Joshua's first celebrity impersonation. :)


Just noting that I love tweaking this blog! I just finished a bunch of little tweaks... so time consuming. Maybe this will inspire me to blog more often, lol. Let's hope so!

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Maddie's Story...

Maddie's story saddened my heart today! This is what we preemie mom's spend our days fearing, even after we've accomplished the treacherous NICU. It is a never ending battle. But, in the midst of such a tragedy, the Spohr family conjured up some good. Check out their organization, Friends of Maddie, which helps families experiencing level III NICU treatment.

This is something to smile about.
What a beautiful girl, in life and after!

Go ahead and snag their button too!

Friends of Maddie

Something cool...

Sarah (my sister) found this pic the other day. I can remember back to when we took this. I remember thinking how ugly I looked and how fat. Of course, lol! Now, 4 years later, I LOVE this picture! It is one of my all time favorites from the pregnancy for some reason.

Believe it or not, I was between 2 and 3 months here. Seems crazy, but my belly grew fast for some reason. I like to think it was God's way of letting me experience pregnancy since it ended so soon.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Exhausting Fruit Loops...

I can remember seeing pics of myself like this when I was growing up. Here is Josh passed out in the high chair after finishing his Fruit Loops. Within seconds he went from spooning and sipping the leftover milk from the bowl to completely zonked out. I was shocked, lol. I had only literally turned my back for a couple seconds. He's too much. He gets cuter by the day. Before he fell asleep, he kept telling me "mee-wah" to let me know he was drinking his milk from the spoon. I think he was proud with accomplishment.

P.S. He is usually shirtless while he eats because he makes such a mess!! I've been known to wash a load of his clothes a day, soiled with chunks and spills from his breakfast, lunch, dinner and snacks. This is just easier, lol.